I am high on caffeine – from decent Brazilian coffee and not some brown liquid that does not bear any resemblance to the real thing. I just feel it would be a shame to waste this opportunity and not write, especially that I have been blog-silent for over a week.
It’s 5:00 PM right now, hard to imagine that I woke up 12 hours ago. This morning, I took my regular tour of the daily papers,
Jordan Planet, and
Toot. And then I sat in front of the pc for an hour and a half trying to put into words what has been in my mind all week – a post that was entitled “an un-thought-out stream of thoughts”, but it didn’t work. Disturbed by the Hamas/Jordan controversy (angry is more like it), depressed by the Dahab bombings, and generally just trying to make sense of all the senselessness surrounding us… I ended up staring at the screen until 7:00 AM… time to get ready for work.
I have no idea how the day went by so quickly (and with much more coffee than usual). I’ve been thinking about
Tololy’s latest posts asking about Arab Unity. The truth is, when I first read her post, I just moved past the question quickly and didn’t even bother to think twice. Arab Unity is a term that has long ago stopped instigating any strong opinions or feelings in me. I guess my generation is one that grew up in school believing that Arabs are the victims of a huge American/Zionist conspiracy and that Arab Unity is the ultimate goal and dream that will solve all of our problems. Why? Is it because the generation of our parents and teachers is one that grew up with the painful defeats, the Nasserite era, and the turmoil of the 1970’s and 80’s??
Actually, I look at the generation of our parents, the generation that was our age at the time of the 1967 defeat, the failed Syrian-Egyptian unity, the so-called victory of 1973 (that’s what they fed us in tenth grade history), the Lebanese Civil War, the Iraq-Iran war… the excuse of war to overlook civil liberties in our countries and impose martial laws (remember that it wasn’t until 1989 that parliamentary elections were back in Jordan)… think of that generation, and try to imagine how all of this, and all of the fading hopes have played into the psyche of the Arab man.
I do believe that there is so much in common between Arab countries, the language, culture, a lot of the social values and norms, and history. More than that, a thing in common is this dire and urgent need for change, for radical change and enlightenment (I don’t want to say reform because that word comes with an unnecessary baggage these days). Yet I don’t think Arab unity is the way to solve any problem or realize this change. Arab unity!! What exactly are we talking about?? Opening up the borders?? Having one common constitution, one currency, one parliament?? Can you imagine doing it like the EU and having a rotation of presidency?? Haha! That thought makes me laugh!! I think the only reason people follow the Arab summit news is to be amused by what Qaddafi might have to say! Ok seriously now, what I’m trying to say is… there is so much that needs to be fixed internally, in each country, before we start thinking of creating some kind of synergy. You don’t move to interdependence from dependence, you move to it when you’ve achieved a certain level of independence. I mean, seriously, let’s not compare ourselves with the EU (regardless of whether that project is working well or not) because we’re no where near what each of those states was before proposing to have a union. The union was not a solution to their problems, it was a step forward to make things even better for their citizens and to play a more effective role on the international front.
I, as a young Arab, am angry at all the crap that we were taught at school, at the pathetic education of history, at the meaningless emotional poems in Arabic class that talked about the glorious past and the coming victory and unity and did nothing but tap into emotions and end up making us feel more defeated, more victimized, and more helpless.
I remember in seventh grade, when we didn’t feel like taking class we’d ask our teacher to have a “discussion class” (7isset munaqasheh, ya miss ya miss). Once or twice, she let us have it, but it usually got out of control with no logic whatsoever being presented and with nobody listening to what the other was saying and everyone talking at the same time. Our teacher would just sigh and say “we Arabs don’t know how to have a civilized dialogue!” See… that’s the kind of attitude that is so damaging, and that does NOT serve the purpose of school in bringing up an empowered generation. But then again, and correct me if I’m wrong, young people here don’t have a sufficiently strong base of history, culture, and general knowledge to enable them to hold civilized and logical debates. They’re not encouraged to develop their own opinions based on analysis of different sides of the story. That’s why you get a generation that relies mostly on emotional illogical arguments, if they care to argue at all.
I have to wrap this up now, and although I still have a lot of thoughts and energy to rant on this issue, I will post it now. Because I know myself, I’ve written half a dozen pieces this week and left them saved as uncompleted drafts. I will not even reread what I wrote. I will just conclude with this note:
I feel so Arab in terms of collective culture, heart and soul. I’m going back to reading modern Arabic literature these days, and listening to beautiful Arabic music. When Morocco played in the World Cup I felt Moroccan heart and soul, when terror struck in Egypt it was like it’s striking at home. It depresses me whenever I think of what Baghdad was, a cultural and political capital of the Islamic empire, a modern arab country with amazing educated people, and what’s happening there now. It makes my blood boil with anger when I think of the injustices the Palestinians have been suffering for so long. But you know what, lamenting over Arab unity is not the answer. I don’t want to listen to the song “el 7ilm el 3arabi” (the Arab dream) again, I don’t want it to give me goose bumps and to play with my emotions… because that is not going to lead us anywhere!
Ok, allow me to quote
Sandmonkey; if you’ve read so far, wow! Thank you! Please leave a comment just so that I know I haven’t been ranting in a vacuum.
TO be continued… one day :)